As I was driving down the road taking Gabriel to Awana the other night I began to pray. I have been feeling like such a screw up in the "things of God" department lately. There is so much I could be doing better, I have been far more in tune with the part of me which lives to please myself than the spirit within me which desires to please God. My spirit and my flesh are at war every day and never have I been more aware of this unseen battle. (See Galatians 5:17)
As I was praying I was asking God if he could please redeem my failures and my stupid mistakes, if he could please make things right in the midst of all I do wrong. This miraculous talent is something only God possess by the way. As I was finishing my prayers I had an overwhelming sense come over my heart. I didn't actually hear the voice of God but it was as clear as if I did. I imagine when this phenomenon happens it is probably a combination of the holy spirit and God's whisper bringing my heart to an understanding.
The overwhelming sense that I got, if I can even describe it was, "Dawn my love is ferocious, it is relentless, it is does not quit on you, and it does not depend on you" My brain went "of course", and I instantly understood in that moment that God's love is not human, it is far more superior than that. As well as we try to love each other as people, even our best attempts can't compare to God's unchangeable love. The love that we see amongst each other goes through seasons of change, it is not always constant, not always the same, and it is HARD WORK! Although it does happen, it is a rare thing to see a love that is bigger than any circumstance. No wonder I have such a hard time believing this kind of love exists.
But God cannot be put into a box!
Once someone belongs to God, there is absolutely not a damn thing they could ever do to change his mind about them. I predict that if any of of you knew me the way that God does, if you knew my inner thought life and transgressions you would have quite a different opinion of me. However God's relentless love is not shaken by anything, he is the strongest love of all. It is unfathomable to me that He could love me this way, but I am trying to understand.
God please help me to truly believe that your love does not depend on me. If I could know that for sure in my heart every day I would be invincible to any trouble I might face. Thank you for saving your dear child. Thank you that I belong to you and there is nothing I could ever do to change that.
Your Daughter,
Dawn
"If we are faithless, he will remain faithful"-2 Timothy 2:13
"Where can I go from you Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I got up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths , you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast"-Psalm 139:7-10
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus" Romans 8:38-39
As I was praying I was asking God if he could please redeem my failures and my stupid mistakes, if he could please make things right in the midst of all I do wrong. This miraculous talent is something only God possess by the way. As I was finishing my prayers I had an overwhelming sense come over my heart. I didn't actually hear the voice of God but it was as clear as if I did. I imagine when this phenomenon happens it is probably a combination of the holy spirit and God's whisper bringing my heart to an understanding.
The overwhelming sense that I got, if I can even describe it was, "Dawn my love is ferocious, it is relentless, it is does not quit on you, and it does not depend on you" My brain went "of course", and I instantly understood in that moment that God's love is not human, it is far more superior than that. As well as we try to love each other as people, even our best attempts can't compare to God's unchangeable love. The love that we see amongst each other goes through seasons of change, it is not always constant, not always the same, and it is HARD WORK! Although it does happen, it is a rare thing to see a love that is bigger than any circumstance. No wonder I have such a hard time believing this kind of love exists.
But God cannot be put into a box!
Once someone belongs to God, there is absolutely not a damn thing they could ever do to change his mind about them. I predict that if any of of you knew me the way that God does, if you knew my inner thought life and transgressions you would have quite a different opinion of me. However God's relentless love is not shaken by anything, he is the strongest love of all. It is unfathomable to me that He could love me this way, but I am trying to understand.
God please help me to truly believe that your love does not depend on me. If I could know that for sure in my heart every day I would be invincible to any trouble I might face. Thank you for saving your dear child. Thank you that I belong to you and there is nothing I could ever do to change that.
Your Daughter,
Dawn
"If we are faithless, he will remain faithful"-2 Timothy 2:13
"Where can I go from you Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I got up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths , you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast"-Psalm 139:7-10
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus" Romans 8:38-39
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